Hi all.
It's 2 o' clock on the dot and I just woke up. Haven't woken up so late in ages and boy does it feel good. Still am on my bed, at the end of it with my back against the wall, notebook on my lap, the weather outside is something like what you get in Malaysia on a chilled sun-less day but a lil more windier and less humid, and I can actually hear birds chirping outside my window, this I kid you not.
I am absolutely enjoying this ! haha.
I knocked off my third paper yesterday, and my final one is next Tuesday. Hence the sluggish mode.
I was doing a bit of thinking last night and the same thought I had 2 years ago kinda striked back at me; is leading a balanced life considered a greedy thing ?
Balanced life? Greedy? Yeah you must be going like what? But here's how I think of it, like there are days where life is just so great, filled with endless amounts of fun and nothing to worry about, and also days or rather periods in life where you just feel like dying and leaving the world just because its too hard to continue going on. Well having it balanced is like wanting a bit of both. (Edit: was reading through the post but hmm, actually when I first had this thought two years ago in KL, a balanced life was like in between a simple life and a happening life. That's right. The original thought from two years ago)
Now, wanting a bit of two things. Does that make one greedy?
Greed. I just looked up Google (lol yes Google is a dear friend to me) and the sites I came across relate greed to desires to excessive power, wealth and stuff relating to materialism. Okay, the greed I'm talking about here is not in the materialistic context. More of .. I don't know actually.
I don't usually write deep stuff so I'm prolly gonna make this post sound awkward but yeah just a thought on vodkacolafreak.
Back to the question, wanting a bit of two things. How does that work?
I know, it's not called greedy for leading a balanced life but its just funny the way I think of it. Cos back in KL, it was either days I lived which were really simple:
Come back from college, take away dinner, eat in front of the notebook while watching a tv series, have some coke, and I'm happy but it can get a bit dullish at times.
Or days where my life was packed with things to do with people: Skipping classes to play pool, party like there's no tomorrow (I used to club on a weekend basis without fail. Scary huh) and heading out at 11pm every night for yum cha sessions.
Two complete opposite lifestyles.
And wanting it balanced. I dunno. I always tend to think that's being greedy but no its not.
And why do things just always have to come this way; where you either can't find it when you need it or its everywhere around you when you DON'T need it. It's so annoying that way.
Or maybe it's just the same ol' line that pops in my head when these things happen to me;
You always want what you can't have.
Reminds me of the song "For you I will" by Teddy Geiger. Used to play this song all day. But yeah, don't you think its just human nature for one to want things you can't have, but like once you've gotten hold of it, you tend to either feel like. i dunno. You can feel content but the other way to feel is like you've already obtained it and realised that's it? Is this all there is to it? Like part of the excitement just vanished.
Hmm. And I just lost the mood to write hahah
Whoa I've been here for 50 minutes already hmm.
I have one more paper but I'm totally unofficially starting my holidays :D Got a movie to catch later to. Yes? No? Why not?
"Nothing tastes as sweet as what I can't have"
-out
It's 2 o' clock on the dot and I just woke up. Haven't woken up so late in ages and boy does it feel good. Still am on my bed, at the end of it with my back against the wall, notebook on my lap, the weather outside is something like what you get in Malaysia on a chilled sun-less day but a lil more windier and less humid, and I can actually hear birds chirping outside my window, this I kid you not.
I am absolutely enjoying this ! haha.
I knocked off my third paper yesterday, and my final one is next Tuesday. Hence the sluggish mode.
I was doing a bit of thinking last night and the same thought I had 2 years ago kinda striked back at me; is leading a balanced life considered a greedy thing ?
Balanced life? Greedy? Yeah you must be going like what? But here's how I think of it, like there are days where life is just so great, filled with endless amounts of fun and nothing to worry about, and also days or rather periods in life where you just feel like dying and leaving the world just because its too hard to continue going on. Well having it balanced is like wanting a bit of both. (Edit: was reading through the post but hmm, actually when I first had this thought two years ago in KL, a balanced life was like in between a simple life and a happening life. That's right. The original thought from two years ago)
Now, wanting a bit of two things. Does that make one greedy?
Greed. I just looked up Google (lol yes Google is a dear friend to me) and the sites I came across relate greed to desires to excessive power, wealth and stuff relating to materialism. Okay, the greed I'm talking about here is not in the materialistic context. More of .. I don't know actually.
I don't usually write deep stuff so I'm prolly gonna make this post sound awkward but yeah just a thought on vodkacolafreak.
Back to the question, wanting a bit of two things. How does that work?
I know, it's not called greedy for leading a balanced life but its just funny the way I think of it. Cos back in KL, it was either days I lived which were really simple:
Come back from college, take away dinner, eat in front of the notebook while watching a tv series, have some coke, and I'm happy but it can get a bit dullish at times.
Or days where my life was packed with things to do with people: Skipping classes to play pool, party like there's no tomorrow (I used to club on a weekend basis without fail. Scary huh) and heading out at 11pm every night for yum cha sessions.
Two complete opposite lifestyles.
And wanting it balanced. I dunno. I always tend to think that's being greedy but no its not.
And why do things just always have to come this way; where you either can't find it when you need it or its everywhere around you when you DON'T need it. It's so annoying that way.
Or maybe it's just the same ol' line that pops in my head when these things happen to me;
You always want what you can't have.
Reminds me of the song "For you I will" by Teddy Geiger. Used to play this song all day. But yeah, don't you think its just human nature for one to want things you can't have, but like once you've gotten hold of it, you tend to either feel like. i dunno. You can feel content but the other way to feel is like you've already obtained it and realised that's it? Is this all there is to it? Like part of the excitement just vanished.
Hmm. And I just lost the mood to write hahah
Whoa I've been here for 50 minutes already hmm.
I have one more paper but I'm totally unofficially starting my holidays :D Got a movie to catch later to. Yes? No? Why not?
"Nothing tastes as sweet as what I can't have"
-out
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